Illustration Dump

The Weatherman Was Wrong

Where I Am From

Donutella

Late Bloomer

Music

Before the Last Star is Gone

Wrong Door

Voluminous

Bolt Boy and Electromato

Stories

Even a Little Light

The Edge of Somewhere

モタガールのバイく

Wow

Citadel

Birthday Pie

New Year

Relic Hunter Game Project Contributions

Forward movement cycle. That slither was a beast to tackle.









Celebratory beats




Some hi-res renders. I created the bump map for these.

Annnd some silhouette stuff

Pre-vis:


We were gonna do a kinda cinematic thing, and this was some previs on that end. It never came about, but hey.



I also made a series of fans meant to act as some form of blowers' mechanic in the game, but that never made it in, either.







Textured and shaded this one because #whynot

Emotional Energy represented by a Dam I guess

A thing I made for BYUIS. It was this series about teaching angsty high school kids to chill out and use their energy for good things instead of drugs and giving up.

Android 5Ever

So this is a dude I made for BYUIS.. I'm not sure what it was used for haha

Modeled and shaded in Maya.

This is the thing that keeps you alive. #science.

It's an Adenosine Triphosphate molecule I made for a BYU Independent Study biology course.

In reality, the energy is stored and released from between the second and third phosphate molecules (when ATP is expended, it becomes adenosine diphosphate and relies on free phosphates to "recharge" itself back in to ATP), but they wanted me to make the electricity stuff all over it to make it more exciting to look at. I was sad about that but I mean whatever I guess.

Modeled, shaded, animated in Maya.

While I'm at it, I'll post this less-whelming video I made of an oxygen molecule doing its thing:

This is my zombie rig.

I made a zombiiiie

Modeled and rigged this in two weeks. I'm working on posting a more dynamic animation, but it's gonna take some time with school and all :(


Here are some shots of the rig for you to look at with eyes:

It's pretty hardcore.

Automatic contrapposto mechanic - when you rotate the hips to either side, the shoulders counter automatically. This is weighted, as well, so you can decide how intense you want the effect to be or turn it off altogether.

The spine is what you call a "flexiplane" which enables the preservation of volume as you squash and stretch it around (gets fatter at squash, thins out at stretch). Makes for great twisting functionality, as well.

An autoclavicle rig allows for the clavicles to follow the elbow at a fraction of the shoulder's rotation. This, like the contrapposto, is weighted and can be customized or toggled as needed.

Speaking of the arm, it has a secondary bone in the forearm keyed to rotate at a fraction of the the wrist to prevent the geometry from pinching unnaturally as the wrist is rotated.

It's hard to really show in one picture, but the feet have some pretty versatile control functions that let you do quite a lot pretty simply.

Scapula simulation wings in the back.

I kind of went all-out nuts with this one. The eyelids have both automatic and manual blinking options (so you can do only one or the other lid if you want), rotation of the eyelid to make up for his lack of eyebrows, a parent-switching mechanic so you can make it follow the head or remain focused on a specific spot and pupil dilation.

The teeth, also, have switchable parents so they can fall out if you want (as you see at the end of the video. I intend to add this feature to the eye, as well. Maybe.

He also has a pretty cool hat.

Anyway. Yup.

That's a sharp outfit, Chan

Modeled, rigged, blendshaped (if you call it that), animated in Maya. Made this a couple years ago.

The brow furrow's a bit much, and this was before I knew much about texturing, so, like, I modeled her eyebrows in haha

Still making stuff. :P

I especially like dishing out "your mom" jokes when people compliment me or my work.

Like,

"Dude, this is awsome."

"Your mom's awesome."




That is all.

Oh, right, there's this, too. :P

Thank goodness for bug butts.

At first she was holding a lantern. Then I was like, "Dude, that's boring. What else glows? Oh! Some bugs' butts glow."

So now Mag is exploring a cave by the light of a bug's butt. Thank you bug. 

This is what happened sometime before I finished the piece. I like it. So now you get to look at it, too!

Oh, right.

I made these, too.

This is the girl from that other post. Her name is Mag. Mag has a sciencigical (magic+science) hoodie that does some pretty cool shiz. I'll tell you about it someday.

This is Mag's mad scientist friend, Professor/Doctor Ceil Karlov. He is the by-accident inventor of her hoodie. The reason he is a hyena is because one day he thought it would be fun. He wasn't wrong. Good thing it's irreversible.

Just Doodlin' 2

You know how sometimes you draw something that sucks, and so you go back and make it worth looking at? 

Yeah.

An honest word or three. Thousand.

You know how in life you meet people, and some of them drift away for one reason or another? Usually it's not because of anything bad, but sometimes for sure it sucks no matter what?

I guess I'm not really talking about one of those.

At least, I hope I'm not...

See, sometimes one of those people becomes your very favorite person ever.

Like, ever.

And no matter how thorough or close your bonds have been with anyone before in your life, that person just tops them all. They fascinate you. They inspire and influence you in the subtlest and most profound of ways.

And it's not that any of the people before were or became any less special or important to you. It's not a bad thing. In fact, I think it's quite good.

See, I have a very favorite person ever.

Like, Ever.

I've known them for a little under a year now. Nobody before them ever appreciated me so completely; played along with me so... reciprocally; enjoyed me not in spite of my quirks, but because of them.

This is a person I didn't know I loved so much until they realized that we were in such different places in life that as things stand, there's no way we could be together and be safe. Sure, we would be incredibly happy, but we're impulsive. Unorganized. We didn't take very good care of ourselves.

And, more importantly, even though we were fantastic at taking care of each other, we didn't push each other upward.

And that's not a contradiction to what I said earlier. Without a doubt she inspired me, taught me.. but one, I don't know how mutual that was, and two, there are more important things than the gradual, steady influence two people who love each other might have on one another.

Life habits are everything. You can be patient; you can be dependable in a pinch; you can be of the kindest of characters, but without the ability to properly care for yourself, without the ability to firmly yet lovingly push your loved one to greater heights, not even the deepest of love can be enough.

Happiness in a relationship is not just enjoyment of the now. It's not the completeness you feel in the company of that special Person. This Happiness is being safe in the faith that you can continue to grow together without end. It's knowing that when you're down, you will be lifted, and that you are willing to be lifted. And vice versa.

If that makes sense.

So when I heard that she didn't know that she could trust me to be the husband and father she might need, it pierced me to the heart and I knew she was right.

I'll be honest. I don't know for sure if she made generalizations (namely, universalizing the weakness so that it applied to both of us) to make me feel better, but at the same time, she was right about herself, too. Pushing me was difficult. We simply weren't strong enough, ourselves, to effectively encourage one another to becoming our very best selves.

And it broke my heart.

And just to clarify, she hadn't broken my heart. I had. I immediately knew precisely what choices I'd made in life that left me ill-prepared for the moment she asked me what I was looking for in a girl; which left me careless and negligent in times where I could have been more than just that reliable friend--where I could have proven myself worthy of her trust.

Hindsight's 20/20, as they say.

But forward is the only direction we can go.

She and I haven't meaningfully spoken in about a month now.

I've missed her friendship like none other.

I made a choice the night she told me these things. Within a week I had landed two jobs. I've since quit the first, but I have what I feel to be legitimate reasons. I began reading my scriptures meaningfully again for the first time in a very long time. I decided that I will not be lazy by leaving dishes in the sink or just tossing my laundry into a pile in the corner of my room. I began going to the temple more regularly. I resolved to begin feeding myself. I began to attend institute. When I found myself plateauing again, I began running each day. I've had to take two sick days since, but hope to get started back up tomorrow.

I'm changing, little by little.. and it's wonderful. I love it.

As things are, I love her too much right now to completely give up on her, on hoping that at some point, maybe I'll have this miraculous third chance, when we've both sorted ourselves out.. But ironically, this can't be for her. This has to be for me and beyond. People are waiting on me. Depending on me. And for a very long time, I've been letting them down. I'm terribly, terribly sorry for that.

But I hope to become the man they--and I--need me to be.

I don't know how long that's going to take. And I ache to think that I may have lost my very favorite person ever to the stars..

I miss her love. Her compassion, her kindness, her dorkiness, her cleverness. I miss how she would have a way to surprise me with something about herself like all the time.

..deep down, I really hope she misses me..

In the end, it's pretty selfish, isn't it.

Just Doodlin'

..I kinda just threw the bg and shading together... :\

Meanwhile, in other news...

..I'm gonna try drawing all the first 151 Pokémon..

I've got Charmander through Wartortle sketched up for scanning, so yeah..

You guys...

...Life is hard.

It's so easy to make bad decisions, and really you have no idea how one small misstep can take you down an entirely different road you never dreamed you'd end up on. It's easy to get depressed, to focus on the negative, to blind yourself to the good. Life is so good. It's so beautiful.. But it's so easy to forget all that. Please, please, please.. Whatever you do, don't give up.. Don't let discouragement and depression take you down. Remember who you are, and who you know you can be at your very best. Remember the good days, the happiness, the blessings, because in times of darkness, you'll be overwhelmingly tempted to believe they barely ever happened at all..

The world is filled with love. It comes from places and people you'd never expect it to, and I'm learning that it's not just about recognizing it when it's there and holding fast to it—It's about being ready for it. Because you don't necessarily have control over whether it stays or leaves. You have control over you—no more, no less. If you're not ready for love, no matter how hopeful or desirous for it you are, it will not be able to long abide with you, and not because it doesn't love you. It cannot abide with you because Love needs Light.

Cherish light. Light is what you should hold fast to. Light invites, entertains, loves Love. Light prepares, changes, molds, builds. Believe in God and His love for you. Let his light become you, and when the time comes that Love knocks, you will be ready, and you won't have to hold on to it, because it won't have any reason to leave. Love seeks light. Be light.

Believe.

Go gettum, Bulbasaur.

Now, use Razor Leaf!!

So Water's pretty fun..

Dinkin' round with waterrrrr

This feels good.

I haven't drawn stuff for way too long.